Still looking

Well here it is and yes I am still looking for a job. The good news is I am testing for a 911 dispatch position on Thursday! The bad news is the process is long and competitive. I have never had such a hard time getting a job in my life. Things are going down hill very quickly since my unemployment has ran out. My family has turned into the family you see on the news. The most frustrating thing about not getting hired is that if you talk to any of  my previous employers they will highly recommend me! So if by any luck at all maybe one of you out there need a loyal hard working employee I am your girl!

Family Tensions

When someone in your family is dying it can be hard to agree on issues. I am lucky my sister is a nurse it can be both a curse and a blessing for sure. My sister is tough as nails but when it comes to our Fathers illness she is struggling to come to terms with it. The problems is she thinks she is dealing great with it. I hate anything to do with hospitals or sick people. I am not one to handle seeing poop or puke or any other bodily fluids any where near me. I hate needles and sick people scare the shit out of me. I am afraid she is not dealing with how sick he is and scared I am not able to handle the job alone. I of course will clean my father if I am needed to but that does not mean I will not throw up when I am done. I mentioned hospice and my sister is dead against it. She says my father will never allow it. She was also quick to point out that they are only there as support and not a care giver. I get that but who would not want support when you are afraid of sick people let alone the emotion of watching my father die? I have never seen a person die. My Mother passed away of a massive heart attack. In away I am glad I get to make my peace with my Father and comfort him when he takes his last breath. My sister and I had a huge fight because he was driving over to see my niece for her birthday. She had many excuses why she could do anything to stop him. She said she had a house full of girls. Why not have your husband pick him up? In the end the fighting is petty and all we have is each other. Everything feels like this huge mountain I am climbing. If my sister even knew I was writing this blog she would freak out. I will hold fast to my sister I love her with all my heart. The unknown is what is tearing us apart.

My department did not survive. I have been looking for a job since sept 2009. I miss my job so much. My company let us go with grace and kindness. My boss could not look at us in the face for the week he knew before us. The head of our department had tears streaming down his cheeks as they let us go. It was the best company I ever worked for.

Yep it is the first day back.

I have always thought the day after a holiday makes it not even worth taking off the holiday in the first place. I came down with a bug and began running a fever today. I went home and went to bed. Every one is afraid of getting the flu so unlike the old days when you work through the fever... Well not so much these days with the swine flu. Lets make it clear I do not have the flu.

A little bit of news from my boss today. You see he bailed on to another job and out of my department. He was tired of being a sitting duck. Being the good ol boy industry that the freight business is he gets to move on. The rest of us remain a sitting duck and in a week a sitting duck with no manager. Although my boss keeps assuring us we will have a new manager, he has no idea when. HMMM.

Well again another short blog today. I have got some kind of bug and I am going back to bed. I be at work tomorrow and I again I will bring a large bag for my stuff. Just in case. Have I mentioned I hate living like this?

Monday night weekend over

Well the long weekend is over and back to work in the morning. I can not help but wonder if Tuesday is the day they give me a box. The day of each new work week also brings the dread of not knowing if I will have job or not. I have to believe that in my heart the President of YRC has a very heavy heart for all of the job losses. He made a lot of bad decisions, but in his defense the economy has not helped. I read horrible things people have wrote about Bill Zollers but I think, how do they know how he feels? Can you imagine the position he is in? I mean yes he made horrible decisions and he is now living with them but really no one intentially puts a company in such a mess. So tonight will be a short blog as I go off early to bed only to toss and turn all night wondering if I will have a job. More importantly if I don't this job how will I take care of my family?

Signing off tonight. Talk to who ever ,if anyone is even reading this.

Labor day weekend

Here I sit on my first day on this blog. Prior to setting up this blog I was again on the Internet reading the latest guesses about my companies financial troubles. I work for YRC INC. I was hired 3 years ago to work for what was known at that time as Roadway. I look back at the day they hired me as sort of ironic now. You see my husband's job had just went to Mexico and he was headed for the unemployment line. The other ironic piece is that it too is a union company across the way from Roadway. Guesses anyone? Freightliner.

I love my job and to be honest I have no ill will with the company at all. The thing I do hate is not knowing from day to day if I will have a job. I like a thousand other people feel like the sitting duck I am. I am a non union employee with the company who is a very union company. I read comments every day and they blame the President of our company and that is not what this blog is about. I just want to document my journey with this company and a job that I truly love. Why? Well it brings me comfort to some how be able to type out my theories and fears.

So join me on my journey as we find out if

1. Will my company go bankrupt?

2. When will my department go a way?

3. what I do with my life after YRC?

I can not reveal my identy untill I no longer work for the company.